Masturbation Journal 1 : Dirty Girls Need Showers

Continuing with the Masturbation theme i have decided to keep a Masturbation Journal. updating it once or twice per week in addition to my other posting on various sexual topics. The Masturbation Journals may be expressed in Factual form or in the form of erotica. please note that my Masturbation journal may contain Ideas/concepts/actions/ fantasies revolving around Alternative Lifestyle interests and/or BDSM practices that may be offensive to some.

Questions or comments regarding the Journal and its contents is highly encouraged. or if You have a unique idea please feel free to express it as i am open to taking all inquiries/ideas/requests etc and will be experimenting.  Stay tuned for more updates and a soon to come posting: Masturbation Techniques (How Tantric Breathing can Enhance Your experience)

And now for the First installment:

 Dirty Girls Need Showers:

i came into the house throwing my bag onto the couch sighing discontentedly at my unfortunate luck. The one weekend it snows, and i actually have to drive into work. nearly panicked driving in the newly iced over roads i had made it safely back to the house. ' i need to calm down.' i told myself.


moving to the kitchen i fixed myself a drink. leaning against the counter as i do most evenings, looking through the mail. my shoulders ache and my head is throbbing. its been one of those days. the kind of day when You wake up, get out of bed and then ten minutes later regret it entirely. i havent had a day like this in quite some time. sitting at the table i finish my drink quickly trying to let the stress of the day drain from my body as easily as the liquid went from the cup. grabbing a book off the shelf i scoot down more in the chair looking through its pages.

i run my fingers through my hair slightly irritated that the tension from the day lingers. i think possibly the internet will provide me with the distraction i need from the events. and so it does with its stimulating intellectual conversations and entertaining news feeds and of course pictures. and yet...only for a while. i feel antsy, nervous almost.

'Nothing a hot shower cant cure." i tell myself reassuringly.

the water heats, enough to turn pure white skin to a shade of crimson. the water creates a veil of steam through the bathroom, lining the walls with a hot clean scent. i pull back the curtain and step in cautiously the spray hitting across my collarbone causing my nipples to harden. the tiny buds aching to be tormented beyond the heat of the steam. the water caresses my body like a well known lover. searing across me, leaving its mark as though i were the petals of a rose caught in a summer rain. the warmth continues to wash over me permeating my brown locks, tangling them shading them a near black.

grabbing the soap i use the loofa to apply a liberal amount. the tropical smell hitting my nostrils bringing me further and further away from the snow and ice, deserting me along a beach. the sun warm and inviting, the water there crystal blue, cool to the touch begging for a naked occupant. i move the loofa over my body coating my skin with the entrancing bubbles. my mind begins to wander as my hands glide over my breasts, teasing the hardened nipples covered in suds. its amazing to realize how little we know about our own bodies...the secret hot spots. how the slightest change in touch or texture can bring about entirely new sensations never before imagined.

i continue soaping my body the loofa running over my thighs as though i were doing a private dance, trying to entice someone. my hands play my skin seductively moving from my chest over my stomach slowly and down between my legs. the soap has collected pooling between my thighs. as my fingers move further down i become more aware at how slick my pussy feels. though i cant decide if its from the soap or my own arousal. biting my lip i look up suddenly realizing that never before in my entire life have i ever...played with the settings on the shower head. i smile to myself thinking what a wicked girl i am one, for never having done so. and two for daring to get clean before getting dirty.

i reach up turning the dial ever so slightly wondering just what variations this particular shower head is equipped with. the steady spray has become soft, dripping from the nozzle. i smile as the spray moves along my chest and shoulders. i imagine the spray to be His touch. a soft gentle feeling that tickles my skin. His fingertips tracing the natural curves of my body, teasing ever so slightly. i imagine this to be most mornings, i wake to Him smiling, thankful for the opportunity to explore my skin. He gives me sweet lazy kisses...the kind that make me melt.

i turn the nozzle...the spray changes to a full, strong spray. turning my back toward the shower head the spray massages over my shoulders rubbing down my back. its Him...enticing me, trying to seduce me. His strong hand running down my back. Dominant and commanding, powerfully moving over my body, daring to only give me a taste of whats to come. a soft moan escapes my lips. leaning forward the brunt of the spray hitting my backside highly similar to the falls on a flogger, building me up. one jet lands perfectly, teasing my little asshole causing me to shudder. the steamy water droplets falling down over my hungry slit.

i move backwards changing the settings yet again the water turning into a hot, hard, streaming jet. i moan loudly turning to press my back against the cool shower wall the contrast to the steam causing my heart to beat rapidly. i arch my back forward slightly the jet moving over my mound closer with every breath to the hardened nub held high between my legs. i imagine Him standing outside of the shower looking at me with disapproval.

"I have such a dirty girl." He tells me crossing His arms watching as the spray hits my engorged clit. i let out a loud groan, i imagining Him smiling briefly. "Since You insist on being such a filthy bitch You might as well put on a good show..." He will take the shower head from its holder handing it to me. i grab the nozzle obediently, drawing it closer to my body the spray hitting my clit fully. i moan and move my hips in a grinding circular motion, arching back and forth. i whimper nearly unable to contain myself. and in my mind i hear him speak...

"Thats it my worthless little fuckmeat, clean Your cunt up real good. Daddy's going to use it later. grind forward bitch! i want to see You get Yourself off, give me a good fucking show! You think i keep You around only because i like You? ha! you're a good source of entertainment when the mood suits me." He takes me by the throat squeezing. sucking my wet nipple into His mouth biting lightly, holding it between his teeth as he speaks. "Now grind that filthy cunt into the jet my dirty little bitch in heat...show Daddy how much you want it."

i move then, furiously... holding the nozzle close to my cunt the spray moving violently over my clit, vibrating intensely. i pinch my nipple imagining His hot mouth covering it again. i hump into the hard stream of water moaning loudly feeling humiliated for being such a wanton whore and at the same time my inhibitions fade away the more i give into my feral nature. i can feel my orgasm coming. the intensity from the stream becomes His hand, His crop...abusing me mercilessly. i'm damn near screaming from the sensations coursing through me. He leans closer holding onto my throat whispering "Come for me now, like the filthy fucking slut you are."

and suddenly, it snaps...my self control breaks and the orgasm tears through me, ripping groans from my throat and shudders from my body, demanding my attention.i quiver as the spasms moving through me begin to dull and the last wave crests.

i whimper and imagine His kiss...pleased and hungry against my lips. moving down my neck whispering softly to me. i turn off the water and as quickly as my imagination came it vanished with the steam...leaving me on the shower floor shivering and satisfied.

The Masturbation Myth

Masturbation is defined as the erotic stimulation especially of one's own genital organs commonly resulting in orgasm and achieved by manual or other bodily contact exclusive of sexual intercourse by instrumental manipulation, occasionally by sexual fantasies, or by various combinations of these agencies. (Basically playing with ones genitals to achieve sexual arousal and/or climax)


There are plenty of nay-sayers when it comes to talk to Masturbation. Many conservative religious groups teach that masturbation is a sinful practice. The Catechism of the Catholic Church lists masturbation as one of the 'offenses against chastity' cautioning that extenuating factors could exist, such as immaturity and psychological issues.It has also been said Masturbation will cause blindness, nosebleeds, headaches, acne, epilepsy, and hair growth on the palms. Recent Medical Studies has found that not only does Masturbation NOT cause these symptoms but it can also help to relieve stress and depression, reduce headaches, and even prevent Prostate Cancer in men. 


In 2003, an Australian Research Team led by Graham Giles of the Cancer Council conducted a medical study and concluded frequent masturbation by males may help prevent the development of prostate cancer. it was found that men who ejaculated on average seven times per week (beginning in their 20's) were one-third less likely to have aggressive prostate cancer in the future as opposed to those who ejaculated less than three times per week. It was also found that ejaculation by masturbation would be more helpful than ejaculation through sexual intercourse because intercourse can transmit diseases which in turn can increase the risk of cancer. As an Example HPV(Human papillomavirus) transmitted during intercourse is the leading cause in women for Cervical Cancer.


There has been no medical Evidence however to prove that Masturbation impairs ones physical or mental health. In fact Medical Researchers have concluded that Masturbation is a good way to learn about ones body and be able to better communicate with ones Partner. Masturbation is a very common behavior even in those who have a partner. In a national study 95% of males and 89% of females reported that they have Masturbated. so not only is it common but also sexually healthy and pleasurable!


But I Don't Know How...
Never fear! there are plenty of Women who dont know how to Masturbate. it is fairly common given the early discouragement from touching 'down there. Masturbation is often a private and personal self-gratifying experience. if you have never masturbated before (or dont know how) it is a simple matter of exploring down south and discovering what feels best. 

Men learn quickly what it takes to arouse and get themselves off. the female body is a bit more complex and mysterious than that. Some women when they are young find that if feels good to rub their genitals against sheets and blankets or objects such as pillows and teddy bears. others prefer 'Manual Stimulation' caressing the clitoris (the small button-like nub protruding from the vagina) with your fingers.


Some women use objects such as vibrators and or dildos to stimulate the clitoris and insert into the vagina. Every person is different, keep in mind it may take a little while to orgasm depending on how turned on you are and how your body works. it can take anywhere from two to twenty minutes (or more) to achieve orgasm so dont get frustrated relax and do what feels good. When You discover something that REALLY feels good do it more. Masturbation will help You learn more about Your likes and dislikes and communicate them with your partner. 


But It's Embarrassing!!!
No one said you had to start performing on live webcam! Relax. If you're not comfortable sharing your findings with your partner thats your own personal business, however telling your partner know your secret hot spots will not only prove to be more pleasurable for you it will also give your partner a confidence boost and open up a door for communication.


Please remember when sharing your new findings in the realm of solo-masturbation to never 'scold' your partner. saying 'you dont do this right' or 'no, not like that.' a simple 'maybe try it this way?' while leading them to your secret places with a pleasurable moan for encouragement is just enough. Once You and Your partner have discovered what makes you pant, its time to return the favor...

for those who are unfamiliar with the penis, most of the nerve endings are located beneath the Glans (Head or tip of the penis) around the Frenulum. The Frenulum is a highly sensitive nerve ending however...this doesnt mean however that you have to (or should) focus on that specific area there are many spots on the shaft that are unusually sensitive including the scrotum. You might try playing with them lightly or cupping them. Keep in mind, this is not a race, take Your time and vary Your speed while stroking the Penis/shaft. it also helps to have some sort of lubrication to prevent skin irritation from prolonged rubbing.


Mutual Masturbation is the act of you and your partner masturbating one another for sexual arousal and climax. Mutual Masturbation is a great way of coping with differing sex drives,(you dont both have to be in the mood at the same time to enjoy it. you can build up to it.) and it can be the beginning of sharing a new level of intimacy. talk about it with your partner and make sure you're both comfortable with the idea before diving right into it. you dont want to pressure and you shouldn't accept someone pressuring you if you dont feel ready.


if You have decided Mutual Masturbation is the way You want to go, take your time and enjoy one another. learn what it is your partner likes and keep in mind it might be a little embarrassing or awkward so be encouraging. You may find with time solo-masturbation and Mutual masturbation can be highly erotic. Don't be afraid to explore or try new things. Switch up Your positions and talk to one another open communication is important in maintaining a healthy and happy Relationship. There is no right or wrong way in regards to Masturbation. go with what you feel and dont force it, let your body respond to the feelings naturally.